Even though it's late and I'm tired, I can tell that I won't be able to sleep. While I usually enjoy the quiet of night, today I prefer the noise of day. It helps me to forget. Once the world grows still, I am alone with my thoughts and the tears that I have been holding back bubble to the surface.
I am so very sad. Everything feels surreal. How, oh how, did this happen? While normally proud to be American, today I feel ashamed. How did we elect as President of our nation a man who ran on a platform of hatred, division, racism, misogyny, bigotry, arrogance, and utter moral corruption? What message does it send to my daughters that instead of a woman, we elected a man who brazenly denigrates women as sex objects? I was no great fan of Hillary, but I am appalled that we as a nation would sink to the level of Trump. I think the hardest part is that I felt so sure that it would never happen. I had so much faith that we as a people would take a stand and say No, Mr. Trump, no. You have crossed a fundamental line of human decency, and we will not be moved.
For the first time, I feel like I have lost faith in humanity.
While there is so much that I could to say, I am reserved for one single reason: my children. While my heart may groan, I long for their hearts to feel happy and secure. Through their eyes, I can still see the hope I wish to feel again.
I want my children to know that even though Donald Trump has given me no reason to respect him, I still have great respect for the office of President. I will pray for the president, really pray for him, for our nation is in great need of prayer. I will do my best to not speak negatively about things past, and give Mr. Trump a fresh start moving forward. I will seek for healing and forgiveness, and strive to reunite a fractured nation.
I also want my children to know that no matter what, our family will continue to defend what is right. We simply will not tolerate hatred, racism, and discrimination. All will be welcomed and loved, no matter their religion, color, gender, orientation, and even voting record. Women, men, and children will be valued and respected as daughters and sons of God.
In the words of Joshua, "But as for me any my house, we will serve the Lord."
This article has helped me process how to move forward since the election: What Should We Tell the Children.